Broken Angel's blog: "Poems"

Rough, Sweet, Fun Rough, Sweet, Fun Take me for the ride I want Make me hurt Make me bleed Cut through me like butter Rough, Sweet, Fun Take me for the ride I want Bruise me Fuck me Make me cry Cut me down Take me for the ride I want Beat me Chain me Stab me Rough, Sweet, Fun Make me hurt Make me bleed Make me a doll Used and worn Take me for what I am Rough, Sweet, Fun ~me~

Under the Lamp left standing under the lamp burning through my skull cant move nailed to the floor chained from the ceiling made to stand there under the lamp burning a hole feeling the blood drip down whats left of my hair over my face standing there unable to move laughing voices chains are pulled tighter more nails to hold me in place my last breath ~me~

I have, For I wish I have cut out my tongue For I wish not to speak I have cut my legs off For I wish not to walk I have cut my hands off For I wish not to write I have slit my wrists For I wish to bleed I have taken out my eyes For I wish not to see I have cut my ears off For I wish not to hear I have taken out my brain For I wish not to think I have cut out my heart For I wish not to love I have died For I wish not to live Burned out and burned down Lost and confused I will say I love you one last time I will say goodnight one last time Heres to an end that means nothing

My Ups and Downs

I have had my ups and my downs Yet you stayed Kept my safe Warm and sane Through my torment My darkest secrets You stayed Bashed and torn There I was Nothing more than dirt Yet you stayed What you saw What you knew Will I ever know I have had my ups and downs Yet you stayed Kept me safe Warm and sane Through my over the top Over joyous ego Laughs and smiles Yet you stayed Standing on my own two feet Not letting no one walk on me Yet you stayed Will I ever know Why You of all people Have stayed Through my ups and my downs

Things I Never Thought I have found I would be willing To do what I wasn't before Just to feel you Hold you Kiss you To feel safe Yet fighting all my fears Just to take that risk Knowing where I have been I have found You just might mean more than I realize You might just be right In what you see In what you know For I have found Everything happens for a reason I have found That I would do more for you Than anyone I have ever known More than anyone I have loved before you I have found That what I want What I want to know Who I want to see Touch Feel Hold Kiss I have found That person is you ~me~

I wanted i wanted it and i went. i was looking for more i wanted more i wanted you and all that you are to be the one you wanted give what i was what i am just to you i wished and hoped what you said was true than again just like that went out the door as we said bye i went because i wanted i was looking for something more i wanted you and all that you are was i wrong was i right what could this mean emotions here emotions there torn between what was and what it i felt the pain deep down inside saw that you were loving and kind i wanted to run and hide but i choose to stay what i wanted was you i wanted and went wanted to stay but couldnt maybe just in the end what i wanted wasnt want you wanted ~ME~

There's No Point There is no point in me There is no point in you So fuck you Like you fucked me I have played I know the ground You're just not you No point In me In you No point in the world So fuck you Like you fucked me I didn't think But than was that my problem You didn't think because you didn't know There is no point in me There is no point in you So fuck you Like you fucked me They have no more Thanks to you ~ME~

What you need I can give you what you need Everything that one can give A lonely soul looking for that one A step at a time Confused Don't want to go throught it again Why Here yet another one Comes and goes What else is new I can give and give Be loyal, honest, trust worthy Yet here I sit Still looking for what I want Yet you still just take what you want I deal and get over it Smile and leave I guess sometimes It's just not enough I can give you what you need I can give you what you want Fun and loving Caring and honest I guess this lonely soul Just isn't worth your time But it's what I have Along with my heart Broken and bleeding You just don't see I guess in the end No matter what I can give I am just not what you need ~ME~

Here Brightly Shinning Here a bright shinny star sits Waits and wonders Excited What will come Prepared Knowing good things will be here Smile so bright Thinking of the possiblities That you have brought to me I new chance A new life New experiences A brightly shinning star A waiting the possiblities Here siting Waiting and wondering Knowing it will all be good Knowing I will shin throught and through ~ME~

Here I Was Here I was so you Here I am so me Never thought that this would be To know that I am back on my own To know that I am stronger Here as the cards unfold Here to show What I already know I was who I was Now I am who I am Wiser and stronger Knowing that what was Wasn't suppose to be Here I was so you Here I am so me Happy as can be Nothing to stand in my way Nothing to hold me down Here after the cards are down I am face to face with myself The world is new The world is fresh Here back to back Moving forward Leaving what was To hold something new To be bold yet once again To risk it all Here I am This is me No longer what you knew ~me~