It's been a month since I had written my previous article.
I'm still going though with the divoce. Sean (my ex) managed to take my son from me, on a technicality that I plan to correct.
I thought I was ready to throw myself out there in the world, maybe even date again. I changed jobs in the last month and while I get some nice hours, it doesn't take my mind off my son or the hell I am being put through. Sean pretended to be my friend and care about me, and what not, and the day of court, he revealed who he truly was. A cold curel selfish being. I can't even bare to think of him as human. I watched as he took my son away from me, treated me like some criminal.
The days are harder now, I have no idea where to go from here. Everything I ever loved doing is tained and I just don't have the heart for it anymore. So I go to work, I come home and I sit at the computer, or watch TV. Stuck. Still on that nasty roller coaster, afraid. Afraid that I will never be able to be normal again.
I am not asking for sympathy, I don't want to be rebound girl either. All I know is right now I need a friend and a direction to go in. If I could have that much, I would consider myself the luckiest person in the world.